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Tue, May. 15th, 2007, 07:52 pm
America

A flag flown high in the sky with the utmost pride
A few stars and stripes behind which we hide
The land of the free, the home of the brave
Yet we cower in fear behind flags which we wave
Red, white and blue rags sewn to make our flag
It is merely clothe about which patriotic fools brag

We infest the world with our foolish ways
Yet stood staring in shock in those sorrowful days
When the twin towers feel and we got what we deserve
We stood in amazment screaming "what nerve!"
America i thought you were smart, or at least learning
a mere piece of clothe won't save your country from burning

You ignorant fools have turned your eyes away
From the pathetic sight of your country today
Poverty is hidden behind cracked doors
While we focus on far away victorious wars
To numb the pain of this pathetic place
Or maybe to make it seem like less of a disgrace

Ignorant blind eyes turn away and refuse to see
They hide behind patriot rags and sing the land of the free!
But I stand alone with an angry fist raised in the air
If this country is so free i will do what i care
I will stand and refuse to wave your little rag
That foolish thing you call the American flag

Fri, Apr. 6th, 2007, 07:43 pm
3/31/07 in loving memory of John

with shakey hands i stare
at the lifeless being before me
that gives me no reply.
the body of a boy lost at sea

the relentless sea of the world
that carried him so far away
and i curse this merciless sea
if not for it you would stand here today

but such a sea carried you (so far away)
never to see another day
the sea of the world that spares only few
the sea that desided to take you

a million quesations left unanswered
but they will stay that way forever now
now that you're gone there is no return
with tearfull eyes i can only gasp how

how could this be truely happening
you were my lifeline my only string
and in this konfusion i turn to denial
that isnt your body you'll be back in a while

its just a magic trick this can't be true
that lifeless body is not you
only a fool would believe this is true
only a fool would believe that is you

but i guess im the fool for my denial
this is no trick thats really you
no mirror tricks or dummies here
every thing going on is unfurtunately true

and i watch with tears in my eyes
as they lower a coffin into the ground
the silence is my only companion now
for the wind and my tears are the only sound

a million quesations left unanswered
but they will stay that way forever now
now that you're gone there is no return
with tearfull eyes i can only gasp how

Fri, Mar. 2nd, 2007, 07:26 pm
toxic

I hope these toxic piosons
seep into your blood stream
Not a word will you speak
as you slowly lay dying
I hope they are the cause
of your most tragic death

I hope they turn you into
the beast that we all see
the hearless, careless fool
that never should have lived
Your perfect skin not now exists
as you lay dying here today

why may you ask with your
one last gasping breath
why may you ask am I
choosing this most painful death
Well my dying friend
its not so hard to figure out
i think you know what this is all about

your slurs of hate and mockery
have over these years been the death of me
now your one last breath
you'll know what you have done
you took my life and threw it away
look at what you've done

now in these last moments you'll
feel the pain you put me through
the pain and knowledge that
not a soul can ever save you
your final breathe is leaving now
and not a tear I've cried

oh what a very tragic moment
as they find your body
slit wrists and needle marks
from those toxic words of hate
what a tragic moment it will be
as they carry you away
I hope you remember your one last day

Thu, Feb. 15th, 2007, 07:46 pm
unfinnished poem

behind this heartbraking smile a thousand tears await
just for one chance to scream in pain and yell in hate
behind these "im oks" are a thousand things screaming in my head
but here they will always wait until im close to being dead

then these screams will cry out and these tears will fall
every thing is pouring out at once and now i face it all
the pain, the hate, the never ending regret, they're pouring out
no mask nor smile can hide these tears, no song can calm this shout

no silent tear shall stain my cheek, nothing shall be kept inside
behind these lies, behind this silence, behind this mask i will not hide
always silent screams of pain and agony have forever been haunting me
But now they are escaping like the merciless waves of a stormy sea

Fri, Jan. 26th, 2007, 05:09 pm

verse 1
Live here live long
never leave the cage
that they've entrapt you in
Be robots that obey every command
Don't step out of the cirle
or you will surely die

dare to be different
This is surely a sin
dare to step out
And you'll never come back in
stay the same and never change
thats all they want from you

if you live here
you will never succeed
so give up on life and
cuz you'll never leave this place
you'll never escape
the conformist cage they've traped you in

chorus
FUCK THAT
escape the cirlce
who cares about the pian
id rather leave then be traped here
id give any thing to escape this fate
well i have the key in hand
you cant trap me here any more
this cirlce is gone
my empty space will soon be filled

verse 2
i decide this fate
im thrown out into the cold
but i can make it on my own
i dont need your judgemental guidence anymore
i dont need your oppinions anymore
and you know i never did

ill make it on my own
without this cirlce
Of conforming hatered
btu heres some news for you
i dont care what the fuck you think
im out on my own and you dont matter anymore

all these steriotypes
and rumers that are eating away at me
i dont care any more
escaping the traps you set for me
to watch me fall
as i run away from this hell

chorus
FUCK THAT
escape the cirlce
who cares about the pian
id rather leave then be traped here
id give any thing to escape this fate
well i have the key in hand
you cant trap me here any more
this cirlce is gone
my empty space will soon be filled

verse 3
ignore the pain
its all in your head
it doesnt matter anymore
just as long as you escape this place
escape the pain escape the hate
im running so far and never coming back

these iron bars cant hold you in
the lock was never locked
just push on the door you hold the key
in your sopposedly meaningless individuality
these mere circles mean nothing
these thoughts mean nothing

you hold the key in your individuality
so fuck the athuroity
and fuck the steriotyped
im running away
from the place where
we're trapped by our own destruction

give youth nothing more than hatred
and we'll delomish eachother
no weapons required
but throw them in there too
and you've got the perfect match
just the decetful human mind
will slowly kill us all

Mon, Jan. 8th, 2007, 08:33 pm

my words are coming out in slurs
I feel like a mindless soul
And my words are all messed up
Just a rivere in my head
That never ceases and it never slows
What's going on
Why can't i put these thoughts into words


Why does it feel like knives
Are being shoved down my throat
i cant breathe and the pain is building up
Every thing is going wrong
Every word is completely insignificant
Does it realy matter what these slurs mean
If you put them together
Would they realy mean any thing

this fire inside me is screaming to come out
but i trap it inside and never let it out
Well its cming out now
And i cant hold back any more
My slurs are spirting out
Like meaningless dying flames

this inferno of limitless emotion
how can i still love when my heart is this tattered
The questions in my mind
Are spiraling out of control
And this blaze inside of me is burning me to pieces
We is this fire melting my heart
Its burning to pieces

I am burning to pieces
And my slurs are overtaking me
I've lost all control
And my insane thoughts are tearing me apart
These phychopathic thoughts are gonna be the death of me
these slurs and these meaningless words
The consequences are deadly but i dont realy care

I just want to get through this one second at a time
I can't stand to think about what the future may hold
It just adds to the thoughts that tear me apart
Every thing thats going on
Its driving me over the edge
I cant breath and i cant speak
But the fire blaze inside of me
Is just telling me to scream

Fri, Dec. 22nd, 2006, 04:44 pm
drowning from you

verse 1
why'd you go and do it?
You didn't have to do it
Why'd You go and mess it all up
Every thing was good before you came
But now its dripping with guilt
And all i feel is shame

You can't diagnose this kind of pain
We all just want to end this game
Just throw the pieces they have no meaning
Its just our lives you've thrown away

chorus
End this world in which i live in
Take me out and end my breathing
You know you want too you've threatened before
All you ever realy wanted
Was to see my dead body on the floor

Lifeless and decaying
Don't you understand what i'm saying
End my life and let me die here
Its what i've been wanting all along

verse 2
I just wasn't right for this story book romance
You swep me off my feet so i had to fall
You gave your heart and i took it all
If you gave it all then
Why am i the one with nothing

Just a broken heart that can't be fixed
You took it and tore it to pieces
Then you hid every thing that could fix it
Now im all alone again
With no one to get me through this game

chorus
End this world in which i live in
Take me out and end my breathing
You know you want too you've threatened before
All you ever realy wanted
Was to see my dead body on the floor

Lifeless and decaying
Don't you understand what i'm saying
End my life and let me die here
Its what i've been wanting all along

verse 3
Its coming to an end
You'll never see me in this game again
Cuz its all over for me now
I got this far but i can't go on
The game board is fading to black
I hope this pain doesn't last long

The walls are closing in
And every thing around me is fading
Now im all alone with a game piece in my hand
And my game will soon be done

chorus
End this world in which i live in
Take me out and end my breathing
You know you want too you've threatened before
All you ever realy wanted
Was to see my dead body on the floor

Lifeless and decaying
Don't you understand what i'm saying
End my life and let me die here
Its what i've been wanting all along

verse 4
well now im lying here on your floor
After you sucked the air right out of my lungs
I gasped for too many breathes
I begged for too many last moments
I guess this is what happened
When you give away your heart

I gave it away and you tore it up
Now i have nothing but tattered nothingness
I tried to make it, realy i did
But it was just to much for me

verse 5
Don't think that i forgave you
Don't think i ever will
I hope you drown in your own pain
Because i gave up on feeling this shame
I hope you hear the news
About the girl who died last night

She jumped from the bridge and now shes gone
But before she jumped she said
"I told you my pain wouldn't last long"
But your pain will live forever

For you were the man that broke her heart
It could have turned out better than this
But you had to go and do some thing so dumb
I hope you drown from your own pain
And don't think this is going to be an easy game

Mon, Nov. 20th, 2006, 07:18 pm
love stuck fool

verse 1
you came upon me out of nowhere
forbiden love but i cant resist
never thought it would turn out this way
Just a simple word
But now its so much more

I can't stop thinking
I can't stop loving
I can't stop wishing
That I could be there with you

chorus
I dont think ive ever felt this way before
No I've never felt this way before
My stomaches churning
My heart is yearning
Just to spend every second of my life with you

I want to see you every second
I tell you every thing
I feel so safe around you
And I would give any thing
Just be there in your arms
Just to be there safely in your arms

verse 2
Am i just a love struck fool
That can't control my emotions
Or is this feeling real
Could i realy be feeling this way

No this is real
Its the most real thing
Ive felt in a long time
This is the first time ive felt this real

chorus
i dont think ive ever felt this way before
No I've never felt this way before
My stomaches churning
My heart is yearning
Just to spend every second of my life with you

I want to see you every second
I tell you every thing
I feel so safe around you
And I would give any thing
Just be there in your arms
Just to be there safely in your arms

verse 3
This is true love it realy exists
And im falling into its clutches
But the funny thing about this
Is that I never want i to end
I never want this feeling to end

I just want to stay here and saok it all up
I love how you make me feel
I love how you understand me
I love how yu never give up on love
I love you

chorus
i dont think ive ever felt this way before
No I've never felt this way before
My stomaches churning
My heart is yearning
Just to spend every second of my life with you

I want to see you every second
I tell you every thing
I feel so safe around you
And I would give any thing
Just be there in your arms
Just to be there safely in your arms

verse 4
My mind is moving so fast
And im not completely sure
What words are coming out of my mouth
Am i putting them into words
Or is all im saying just drunken slurs

Words racing across my mind
Love struck fool and day dreamind hopeful
Words of romance and love and what it all means
I'm not quit sure whats going on
But i never want it to end

chorus
i dont think ive ever felt this way before
No I've never felt this way before
My stomaches churning
My heart is yearning
Just to spend every second of my life with you

I want to see you every second
I tell you every thing
I feel so safe around you
And I would give any thing
Just be there in your arms
Just to be there safely in your arms

Sun, Nov. 19th, 2006, 09:54 pm
confusion

verse 1
I'm standing here shaking
And I can't stop crying
I don't know why
So stop asking my to tell you

I don't know whats going on
So stop asking what's wrong
i don't know how I got here
But I just want to leave

chorus
Hide in the corner
And box myself inside
Find the escape ruite
And bult out the door

Will it lead to pain
Is it possible that
I could suffer more than I already am
Is it possible at all
That things could get much worse

verse 2
All around me they are saying
That they don't want to go on
Where can I go just to let it all out
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs

"Doesn't any one care"
"Doesn't any one understand that
I don't want to be here any more"
I fall to me knees and beg for the pain
To just wash away in the river of hatred

chorus
Hide in the corner
And box myself inside
Find the escape ruite
And bult out the door

Will it lead to pain
Is it possible that
I could suffer more than I already am
Is it possible at all
That things could get much worse

verse 3
And then the rumers start
All the things they say
I guess it could get worse
This is whats it like to be worse

I thought I hit rock bottom
So I got up and walked
But then I fell and realized
It was just a cliff I was no where close

chorus 2
Now I'm falling in thin air
And I'm falling so fast
I can't catch my breathe
But I don't realy want to

I just want it all to end
These tears are drowning me
And I can't breathe
These tears they're trapping me inside

verse 4
I don't know whats goin on
I don't know how to move on
I don't know any thing
And I hate my stupidity

Why do i trust every one
Why do I juswt watch myself get hurt
Why can't I just stop
And tell myself
What do I tell myself
When theres nothing left to say

Tue, Nov. 7th, 2006, 10:41 pm
irony

verse 1
blackened lungs and soot lined heart
can't escape the fires all around me
Carbon Monoxide is screaming my name
"Now I have got you"
"Now you are mine"

A cage of smoke traps me inside
"Theres no where to go"
"No where to hide"
Filling my lungs and capturing my soul
Filling my heart and paracading my mind


chorus
You do the drugs and I feel the pain
Your save in your haven
While I am suffering
Taking the blame and feeling the shame
The irony is unbearably true
You fill the air and hide behind your filter
I live in my home and slowly die

verse 2
It's not just emotional
You can't understand
The pain that I feel with every breath I take
Carbon Monoxide creates a ring around my neck
Bound to the pain that you always cause

Blackened lungs and a shortend life
The irony is unbearable
You do the drugs but I am punished
You do it all and I get hurt
So go on hide behind you filter and watch me die

chorus
You do the drugs and I feel the pain
Your save in your haven
While I am suffering
Taking the blame and feeling the shame
The irony is unbearably true
You fill the air and hide behind your filter
I live in my home and slowly die

verse 3
A cloud of Carbon Monoxide around my crib
The silent lulaby of piosoned air
A new born baby inhaling the fumes
The tears can't be controlled
And they can't be stopped

A ring of pain around a newborn's neck
A ring of quarenteed pain around
The inosent child
Born to die from the pain you caused
Born to suffer from the irony

chorus
You do the drugs and I feel the pain
Your save in your haven
While I am suffering
Taking the blame and feeling the shame
The irony is unbearably true
You fill the air and hide behind your filter
I live in my home and slowly die

verse 4
Suffer from the pain that caused
You started this but now you can't end it
You just keep filling the air
With the piosonous fumes
Why can't you even try to end this maddness

Unbearable irony
Why must I suffer
Why must I take the blame for your mistakes
Smoke filling my lungs
Clouds around a crib
The inosent will suffer for your mistakes forever

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